Message For Past

  A calm afternoon went change when a robot come to a house of an old lady. Estimated a 69 year old grandma. Her humble heart led her into a curiosity and calm coversation



"Hi there, my name is Muza. Iam a robot from the future sent by master to help you."

"Muza? Sounds familiar, help me for what?"

"You will receive a message from my master. But before it happen, you need to ask me 5 question based on what you want to know from me, or my master."

"Okey.. First question"
          *thinking*

"Come on, make it quick."

"I got it! If you sent by your master to me, you must be know my biography? So tell me my biography!"

"You were born in 5 December 1998, named Maya Dessyaputri Fithriani. Maya origin is come from mixing between your father and mother, Madjid and Yana. You were raised by two best parent. You also have two best brothers named Ian and Aldyn. You had a fight in 4th grade that leaves you a scar on your right upper arm. You make your parents proud in 6th grade because you ranked 1st in your class. In junior high school you have a crush named wibi. In my opinion i dont understand that you like that kind a boy. And then..."

"Hey! That is not nice opinion. For my defend, he is my type at that age.... Any way skip that part. I think you know what i dont know about me. So i don't wanna hear about it okay!"

"Haha that is a deal."
"Moving on question number two."

"Hmm let me see..... WHY YOU DESIGNED AS A PANDA??"

"Because my master made it this way, after all, this is your favorite animal right?"

"..........."

"Is there something wrong?"

"It just... you know so much about me like you know me for a long time."

"Of course we not know each other for a long time. We just met you know."

"My third question is who is your master!"

"I can't answer that."

"......... why is that?"

"I can answer it, but you have to save it for last question."

"It is not fare."

"Im sorry mam, master's order."

"Neverthless... Muza?"

"Yes mam?"

"I'm still wondering what is the meaning of that name, it's like an old long gone friend."

"Maybe it is, are you want me to answer that question?"

"Hmm no, i think im gonna find out myself."

"If you say so."

"So in what year you are builded?"

"I'm production of 2087 robot. Im a healthy and safety robot companion. Just say that im a traveller doctor robot."

"Nice... So are you a gift for me?"

"Yes, im the one who will take care of you. Until im no longer needed by you?"

"So if i die, you die?"

"Yes, something like that"

"..........."

"Okay 4th question."

"Hey! It should be 5th question. Because i just asked 2 question!"

"That is not counted, because it still the same topic."

"You rude robot..."

"Well, its mas..."

"Master order? Yeah get it."

"Hahah. Okay next question."

"When will i die?"

"Next year, on Friday 30th June."

"What..."

"You died because of cancer that you make from smoking cigars. You do have a cancer if you know."

"Of course i know!"

"In my opinion, it is kinda funny. Do the opposite of one thing that you hated the most. Smoking."

"You think you know better?! Im alone! Im a widow! My husband died because a car accident. My only son blame me for it! I got stressed and fucked. I keep praying, hoping for feeling that everything is gonna be okay. But nothing comes. Just this hollow by doing this fucking thing that i hate the most."

"Of course i know, because my program based on your feeling and mind."

"Wait how is it possible?"

"In a year from now, when you died. My master came un ghe first hand to see your last body. He did crying. After that he take your brain cells. Before he doing it, he kiss your cheek and say "i will never say goodbye, and you will not to. Because if there is a goodbye. We only say okay" And then he left the hospital. From that moment, he trying to make a robot companion to help and take care people. My master died when i was 2 days age. He don't want to be help, he say it is his time. After my master died, i have a protocol to shut all factory of his. Because he doesnt want more nicer robot than me."

"What.... who is your master. Why would he do such thing?"

"Because he wants only the best for you, the best robot for you."

"I....... dont..... know what to say.."

*silence for a while*

"So..."

"Yes mam?"

"Who is your master?"

"Zuhal Farisa Nurmadani. Is my master."

"............................."

*all the sudden forgoten memories come to remember*

*dropping tears*

"That name..... A long time that name hasnt come to my ears."

"This is his message."
*opening robot's chest*

"................... muza..........."

"When you buried it, he...."

"Her! Not it."

"My apologize, when you buried her. He knew from your friends, so he shovel her from the dirt. He take care of it ever since. Making it look like new. Just like when he give it you. Because he knew.... She should have been with you all along."

*crying*

"But why he did all this. A person will did this if he loves me. But he didnt!"

"He loves you. When you broke up at college, he try to be rich first. So may you be happy when he can propose you with a decent moneyy for both of you. But it is too late when you were married with another man. It really broke his heart, so he alone ever since."

*crying*
  *crying*
    *crying*

"I love that man until now. From the first time i knew him. Until now. This second. I love him. Still and will."

"So that is all."

"That is it?"

"Of course, now a new chapter begin."

"What chapter?"

*changing voice tone to zuhal*

"You and i together forever."

*Maya slowly stand up and hug the robot*
*Whispering*

"I love you Muza"

                                                         


                                         

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Melihat tulisanmu. Aku merasa jadi harus memberimu hadiah juga. Happy unofficial anniv. Anggap ini hiburan bagimu biar lebih kuat. Jangan dibaperin. Hope you like it

Gaze

stay a while
i'm gazing the way you move
from far
never look back
since then
i won't have to wonder the words again

stay a while
i'm watching the story goes a far
only a little while
it seems
it's right into my head, but then

the lights go down
curtain falls
that's how the story ends
thus, the day passes by
i knew that these gazes are over do

stay a while
still gazing the way you move from far
taking it hard
and now i know
shows've come to an end
and see

stay a while
i'm taking my final gaze
you see
gonna look back this time
i will wonder the words again
my dear

the lights go down
curtain falls
that's how the story ends
thus, the day passes by
i knew that these gazes were over do

night will fall
you see the city glows again
you see the morning comes too soon
that's how the circle goes around

here, there, always the story from somewhere
always another line to sing
and i will stay
along these line
i've broken to pieces
lying somewhere

stay a while
i'm gazing the way you move
from far
never look back
since then
i won't have to wonder the words again

Another Dark Night

  Selamat malam, aku ingin bertanya? Apakah ada yang pernah merasakan tidak diinginkan? Kalo iya malam ini kita sedang satu halaman. Mungkin perasaan saya saja yang terlalu berlebihan. Mungkin bisa kalian nilai dari cerita ini. Jadi sebelumnya saya menyarankan sebuah tempat makan untuk keluarga. Namun yang di ajak ngomong tentang tempat tersebut adalah adik saya. Entah kenapa selalu dia yang diajak ngomong soal jalan. Saya jarang banget di gubris tentang hal tersebut. Saya.... sedih sekali. Ayah saya paling pelit ngomong sama saya. Padahal saya ingin banget dekat dengan ayah saya... Ingin sekali. Namun mungkin karena kita berdua tidak tau gimana caranya mendekati saya, begitupun juga saya. Tapi saya tidak tau... Saya sering banget merasa menjadi angin. Sering banget. Seakan satu kesalahan saya, menjadi kesalahan saya selamanya. Ia tidak tau cara berbicara dengan saya, ia selalu menggunakan nada tinggi, beralasan berwatak keras. Itu tidak ada hubungannya sama sekali, orang berwatak keras tidak perlu menggunakan nada seperti itu. I'am one lonely son in this house. I just wanna go free from here. From this rules.

Dark night

   Malam gulita di langit Garut, langit sedang mengungkapkan perasaannya. Tetesan air jatuh bertubi tubi. Karena ia sedang sakit teramat dalam. Hatinya dilukai oleh tak lain dan tak bukan, manusia. Mahkluk serakah yang hidupnya hanya memikirkan sendiri. Alangkah lebih baiknya jika manusia tiada, seharusnya. Karena memang, kami manusia tidak mengerti apa itu balas budi. Dengan sesama pun tidak lah terjadi hal tersebut. Bagaimana dengan mahkluk lainnya yang ikut hidup di bumi ini. Karena manusia selalu benar, selalu kuat. Keegoisan mereka yang membuat mereka bisa merasa seperti itu.

😊

   Ini entah kenapa tulisannya jadi gede. Hiraukan saja. Sebelumnya, sekarang saya sudah berumur 18thn #gapenting. Saya sedang mengalami tidak enak badan sejak hari ulang tahun. Namun biarkanlah, dosa saya sedang dihapus. Ada dua sisi saat mendengar kabar tersebut, nona. Jujur aku akan merindukan berbincang denganmu karena kamu memang memiliki watak asik. Lebarkan sayapmu saat seseorang mendekatimu, nyamankan dirimu. Aku hanya bisa mendoakanmu sekarang barbie palsu. Karna sekarang aku hanya kenangan. Goodluck in life!

So Long #extended

 


   Yeah, ini terjadi lagi. Layaknya buku lama yang dibaca kembali. Aku tau kamu menganggap apa yang aku lakukan hanya main main. Tapi gaada yang perlu kujelaskan karna kamu pun tidak akan percaya. Jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Sebenernya endingnya tidak perlu begini, ini terjadi karna kamu ingin kepastian, maka aku berikan. Karna aku memang masih terlalu takut jika suatu hari aku melakukan hal yang sama seperti dulu. Tapi aku yakin kamu ga percaya hal itu jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Hal lainnya adalah sikapmu yang bisa aku bilang manja. Manjamu yang dulu kamu ungkapin. Itu buat aku merasa lebih takut. Pasti kamu ngerti maksudku walaupun kamu ga percaya. Jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Itulah alasanku, tapi karna aku tau kamu ga percaya jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Aku ga pernah niat menyakitimu walaupun memang terlihat seperti itu. Tapi karna kamu melihat aku sebagai penyakit, kanker, pembunuh, apalah maka biarkan. Biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Dan aku juga merindukannya, saat bersamamu. Kamu membuatku mengalami "first time" dalam hampir segala hal. For that i cherish and bless the experience that we spend together. All i say is i'am a sinner, an angel doesn't deserve a sinner. Au revoir maya.  Semoga pasanganmu nanti, mengimbangi dirimu yang sekarang. Untuk apa yang aku bilang dengan bahasa alien. Aku gabisa janji, but who knows right? Goodbye. Best luck in life.

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So Long

   Yeah, ini terjadi lagi. Layaknya buku lama yang dibaca kembali. Aku tau kamu menganggap apa yang aku lakukan hanya main main. Tapi gaada yang perlu kujelaskan karna kamu pun tidak akan percaya. Jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Sebenernya endingnya tidak perlu begini, ini terjadi karna kamu ingin kepastian, maka aku berikan. Karna aku memang masih terlalu takut jika suatu hari aku melakukan hal yang sama seperti dulu. Tapi aku yakin kamu ga percaya hal itu jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Hal lainnya adalah sikapmu yang bisa aku bilang manja. Manjamu yang dulu kamu ungkapin. Itu buat aku merasa lebih takut. Pasti kamu ngerti maksudku walaupun kamu ga percaya. Jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Itulah alasanku, tapi karna aku tau kamu ga percaya jadi biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. Aku ga pernah niat menyakitimu walaupun memang terlihat seperti itu. Tapi karna kamu melihatnya sebagai aku penyakit, kanker, pembunuh, apalah maka biarkan. Biarkan saja tetap seperti itu. All i say is i'am a sinner, an angel doesn't deserve a sinner. Au revoir maya. Semoga pasanganmu nanti, mengimbangi dirimu yang sekarang. Untuk apa yang aku bilang dengan bahasa alien. Aku gabisa janji, but who knows right? Goodbye. Best luck in life.

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